Paul Ramnora Gambling

SAT 270221 GAMBLED ON WILLIAM HILL ROULETTE DEPOSITED £10/LOST: 0.76p BAL I woke up with the feeling that I really, quite desperately, needed to gamble...! After checking my bank a/c. balance...I discovered there was £18.xx in there; so, I decided to deposit £10.00 into my William Hill a/c. I choose to play Roulette; and, for quite a while my betting was successful...£3.00 bet/30 x 0.10p on numbers 1-30... until when I decided to double my bet...; then, all of a sudden, 0 came up! Occasionally, I would toss in a few twin row betting...2 to 1/(no multiple of 3's); and, that was an 'up/down' result; though, mostly, it won. I continued betting...and, to go cut a long story short...eventually, my balance said just: 0.76p left. I made one final bet on Black Jack this time; and, it won...my balance now said: £1.46. (5+6+Picture card = 21./The computer's own draw went 'bust'!) At that point, I felt totally disillusioned to have lost £10.00...; which, basically, made me

MON 220221 GAMBLED AND LOST £3.90 I went over to my William Hill a/c. just to check in any random bets I'd made had come in, yet; the balance said: £3.96. I made a few roulette bets costing £3.00 each time; I won, at least, once; but, eventually, this bet lost...and, I was left with something like £1.56p. My next bet was on 2 rows...at 75p each = total £1.50; and, the number 33 came up (any multiple of 3 means the bet I made lost); thus, my closing balance said: £0.06p. I was thinking about making a further deposit; but, in the end, decided against doing that. For now, at least, that is my betting for the day all done, (hopefully?).

FRI 190221 16:08 PM GMT GAMBLED AT WILLIAM HILL AND LOST £10.00 I signed into my William Hill account; where I went and deposited £10.00; I believe, the balance now said £10.10. I opened up 2 separate windows... - Black Jack - Roulette I made a few 0.10p bets on various different sports; sometimes, when I won at either Black Jack/or, Roulette...I used that money to fund my other £0.10p bets. Eventually,  however, I started loosing...; until when all of the money ran out completely, and, I was left with nil balance. GOOD LUCK I'm sure I won at Roulette -(30 x 0.10p)-, at least, 4 times in a row; and, I also won at Black Jack a few times...one time hitting the top 21/(Black Jack). BAD LUCK The number 0 came up, at least, once! ----- NOTE : The urge to gamble does still remain very strongly in my blood; I honestly believe it always will. The one and only hope I have of ever dealing with this problem is to bet low...; as opposed to high. Meaning deposit -(and, lose)- £10.00; but, not -

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