Paul Ramnora Gambling

3:30 AM SIGNED IN TO WILLIAM HILL/DISCOVERED £4.00+ BALANCE/DECIDED TO PLAY ROULETTE I signed in to William Hill...; and, discovered my 'delayed' bets had won £4.00+; that's when I decided to play Roulette in order to win some more. Some bets lost...; other bets won...; eventually, when the total said £5.00+...I decided to with draw the round £5.00; and, then, -after playing a little bit more- transfer the rest of the pennies balance into my William Hill Poker a/c., instead.  Currently, my William Hill a/c. balance says: 0.00 balance. My poker a/c. balance says: £1.70p +. ----- At the same time, I'm thinking about investing more money into William Hill so that I can continue playing...; whilst, at the same time, thinking to myself...what if I were to go lose everything, then...which would be far more money that I'd ever won/or, withdrawn...?!

THU 180321 BET £30.00/LOST: £3.00 BAL Tonight, I went and bet £30.00 on William Hill roulette; it lost...I was left with just £3.00 balance...which is when I decided to quit. Before my bank balance said: £101.00; and, now, it says just: £71.00 left. I think of all the things I could have done with the £30.00...including leave it inside of the a/c....in order to pay bills, later on; then, I think that the 'gambling' was a total waste of time...not to mention a truly dreadful waste of money, as well. ----- However, when you are an 'addictive' gambler...; then, it's very difficult, indeed, to stop...; when you have this constant 'itch' going on...that you just cannot wait to scratch...?! Even after losing, the feeling I have is one of sheer 'emotional' fulfilment/release...; as opposed to strictly 'logical' feelings of regret. I think, what I really should have done...if I 'must' go gambling...is just invest...£5/£10...and, no more. But,...