Thu 130423 Dream: Gambled/WON! (NOT real money...just purely a dream.)

 Thu 130423

- 8 AM AWOKE: Had a really 'strange' dream...where I WON the Lottery...!!!
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- 8 AM AWOKE: Had a really 'strange' dream...where I WON the Lottery...!!!
Thu 130423 (NOTE: The 'unlucky' number: 13...inside of the current date...?!)
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Boy, did I have a really strange dream...and, can't really tell when last I had one just like it.
I was sitting inside of a Casino playing all different sorts of games...; then, I recall I won at one of these...; and, next, used those winnings to invest in betting on another game, instead.
Well guess what...it won...; but, not only did it win...; it said you'd gone and 'broken the bank!'
So, I was like...wow...I've made it...every gambler's ultimate dream is to 'go break the bookies bank'...and, yes, I finally did it! 😉
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Then, I awoke...; and, the very next thought that hit my mind was...there is, also, such a thing as people having 'dreams of contrary'...where, essentially, 'good dreams/turn bad'.
In reality, though, I am 'totally flat broke'; meaning, there is little or no money left inside of my bank a/c's.; and, what little is left is just 'fast' running out...thus, leaving me feeling, really and truly, 'scared'...!
The other big worry I'm having is...such dreams which 'tempt' you to go gambling...are really bad; and, especially, so...when a person is a 'gambling addict' like myself. In that whatever money you do have left...you will be 'tempted' to go and gamble it...; and, then, that really will leave you with having absolutely nothing.
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It's the doing 'endless dreaming'...which got me into so much trouble in the first place...only succeeding in totally 'emptying' out all of my bank a/c's
Meaning, doing all of this 'endless dreaming' has really gotta stop...by just NOT following it up in any way at all!
So, far it's been around 1 week that I been off gambling...; and, frankly, that's exactly where I'm going to stay.
F*** dreaming...because dreaming has totally ****ed me!
The only bank that the 'addictive gambler' is going to break is, in fact, their 'own'...; because, they themselves know deep down inside...and, judging from their own previous experiences, repeatedly, again and again...that even when they do win...; then, purely due to the fact that they just CANNOT 'stop' themselves from doing endless gambling...with the odds set against your winning in the long run...that just means you lose...all of your stake/winnings, and, more(money/dignity/self-worth/the trust of others...family/friends/-etc).
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I heard of something call going 'cold turkey'...where the addict experiences strong withdrawal symptoms...maybe, the less you are doing it...means, the more you 'think' about, actually, doing it.

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