Paul Ramnora Gambling

For some reason, I found my mind being focussed entirely on 'gambling'...; and, the urge just wouldn't stop...?! I think, that to some large degree I was encouraged by... -> Playing every 4 hours FREE poker games at ZyngaPoker.com -> Having had some money come in You see I had some serious bills to go and pay...; and, not just merely one or two...; but, more like ten or twenty of these:  £40.00 - Direct Debits due at the end of the month £40.00 - Bank charges due on an overdraft loan £2,000.00 £25.00 - Monthly payment due on loan amouting to £400.00 £30.00 - Due to the internet/telephone company £30.00 - Due to anti-virus software renewal £...... -etc. But, of course, with just £100.00 being available...I didn't have sufficient money to be able to pay off all of these debts...; so, my mind thought about the 'one and only' way I know how to make money online; and, that is to go gambling. ----- I used multiple different web sites to play, including... -> ...

Gambled at PaddyPower: Roulette/Poker: Dep. £50.00/Won: £115.00/Lost: 0.23p balance! I decided to have a go at gambling at PaddyPower... - https://www.paddypower.com I used my Neteller a/c. to deposit £50.00...; thus, leaving my Neteller a/c. with an empty balance.  Next, I proceeded to play both: Roulette/Poker games. I was actually winning at Roulette around £115.00+...(took me all day long to be able to achieve that score); but, then, like a fool...I went and bet far too high...that's when I started loosing, seriously...£48.00 at a time; until there was just £19.xx left. That was when I decided to quit playing Roulette altogether, anymore; and, switched instead to playing Poker. Sometimes, I won at Poker...other times I lost...; one of the last Poker games I played for the day...I won a FREE £20.00 ticket.  However, the bottom line is...I left PaddyPower with just: £0.23p; so, nothing I can re-deposit back into Neteller(the minimum withdrawal is either £5.00/or, £10.00).

I went and deposited £5.00 at William Hill... https://sports.williamhill.com ...made the usual 30 x 0.10p = £3.00 bet in total. Twice, it won...I believe the balance said: £6.21; then, I decided to 'double up' the £3.00 bet...to become: £6.00, instead; which is when it lost...and, I was left with just £0.21p balance. My reaction is, sad, shock; boy, what a terrible waste of precious money!  The trouble with gambling is...gambler's are dreamers, and, big time...so, they aren't really living in reality, anymore...but, instead, they let their dreams carry them away, totally, instead...BIG mistake! In order to bet, safely -(not that there is anything such as a, truly, 'safe' bet?!)-; or, at least, as 'safely' as is possible...then, it's best to be low...; and, only bet with amounts that you can, actually, afford to lose. Being 'unemployed'...and, having extremely low funds to go play with...therefore, I could NOT afford to lose that £5.00; and, s...

GAMBLED AT WILLIAM HILL/GAVE ME FREE £15.00 TO PLAY WITH I woke up to find a William Hill email stating they had deposited some money into my a/c. When I 'signed in'...I discovered they weren't lying; and, in fact, I had £15.00 to play with. I choose to play Roulette, as is usual; making my normal bet 30 x 10p; it both 'won and lost'...; my total went down to become just £3.00; however, I still continued betting...; eventually, I was making 30 x .50p bets...as I had won back £15.00...at one point the total said winning £21.00. However, that's when I decided to go 'all in'...and, it went and lost; thus, I was left with nothing; I had no other choice left but to quit!

3:30 AM SIGNED IN TO WILLIAM HILL/DISCOVERED £4.00+ BALANCE/DECIDED TO PLAY ROULETTE I signed in to William Hill...; and, discovered my 'delayed' bets had won £4.00+; that's when I decided to play Roulette in order to win some more. Some bets lost...; other bets won...; eventually, when the total said £5.00+...I decided to with draw the round £5.00; and, then, -after playing a little bit more- transfer the rest of the pennies balance into my William Hill Poker a/c., instead.  Currently, my William Hill a/c. balance says: 0.00 balance. My poker a/c. balance says: £1.70p +. ----- At the same time, I'm thinking about investing more money into William Hill so that I can continue playing...; whilst, at the same time, thinking to myself...what if I were to go lose everything, then...which would be far more money that I'd ever won/or, withdrawn...?!

THU 180321 BET £30.00/LOST: £3.00 BAL Tonight, I went and bet £30.00 on William Hill roulette; it lost...I was left with just £3.00 balance...which is when I decided to quit. Before my bank balance said: £101.00; and, now, it says just: £71.00 left. I think of all the things I could have done with the £30.00...including leave it inside of the a/c....in order to pay bills, later on; then, I think that the 'gambling' was a total waste of time...not to mention a truly dreadful waste of money, as well. ----- However, when you are an 'addictive' gambler...; then, it's very difficult, indeed, to stop...; when you have this constant 'itch' going on...that you just cannot wait to scratch...?! Even after losing, the feeling I have is one of sheer 'emotional' fulfilment/release...; as opposed to strictly 'logical' feelings of regret. I think, what I really should have done...if I 'must' go gambling...is just invest...£5/£10...and, no more. But,...

SAT 270221 GAMBLED ON WILLIAM HILL ROULETTE DEPOSITED £10/LOST: 0.76p BAL I woke up with the feeling that I really, quite desperately, needed to gamble...! After checking my bank a/c. balance...I discovered there was £18.xx in there; so, I decided to deposit £10.00 into my William Hill a/c. I choose to play Roulette; and, for quite a while my betting was successful...£3.00 bet/30 x 0.10p on numbers 1-30... until when I decided to double my bet...; then, all of a sudden, 0 came up! Occasionally, I would toss in a few twin row betting...2 to 1/(no multiple of 3's); and, that was an 'up/down' result; though, mostly, it won. I continued betting...and, to go cut a long story short...eventually, my balance said just: 0.76p left. I made one final bet on Black Jack this time; and, it won...my balance now said: £1.46. (5+6+Picture card = 21./The computer's own draw went 'bust'!) At that point, I felt totally disillusioned to have lost £10.00...; which, basically, made me...