Paul Ramnora Gambling

I woke up...and, as usual did some FREE betting online at: - https://sports.williamhill.com - https://www.ladbrokes.com - https://www.coral.co.uk I noticed there was a £4.35 balance inside of my Ladbrokes a/c.; only the minimum amount you are allowed to withdraw is £5.00; too, the minimum amount you are allowed to deposit is, also, £5.00. This meant in order for me to get to withdraw the £4.35 balance; I would first have to make a deposit of £5.00 minimum; then, I would be allowed to withdraw £9.35. So, that's exactly what I did...made the £5.00 deposit. Only, then, my mind starts telling me...; why not do some gambling, instead... 'before' making any withdrawal. Another part of my mind is telling me...; no, please, don't do that...; because what if you end up loosing it 'all'...? (As I've done so many times in the past, repeatedly, again and again...) So, what I did was just have a 'quick' go at gambling...playing the game of, Roulette; It was an in...

DIFFICULTIES PAYING BILLS.../PLUS, PAYING FOR FOOD/DRINK...?! First, I knew I was totally flat broke...; as the money left inside of my current a/c. can only cover 2 bills...both of which are due, immediately, right now. Once those 2 bills have been paid... - £33.00 Council Tax - £35.00 Travel pass (I need this to go to college, soon.)   ----------   £68.00 And, I only have no more than £50.00 being left inside of my bank a/c. So, the question is how to make some more money 'legally'...as opposed to 'steal'. I decided to try going gambling, again...; if only to make a few pounds...possibly, £10.00. Well, they do say that, 'the best laid plans of mice and men can go awry...?!' ----------------------- I deposited £40.00 into my Ladbrokes a/c. And, started playing one of my favourite games: Premium Roulette. I would love to say the funds went 'up/and, down' rather wildly...; but, certainly, not by much...; I remember the total hovering around £38.xx/£39.xx....

WON £5.00+ Just as the day was ending...I decided to do some FREE bets at: Coral/William Hill/ Ladbrokes. I think, I won some money at Coral...; but, only just mere pence. I won £5.30 at William Hills...; the which total I immediately withdrew...it being over the minimum one is allowed to withdraw...which is £5.00 minimum. WENT BACK IN TO GAMBLE, AGAIN Only trouble there was with that one win...; I was instantly 'tempted' to go and gamble some more.  So, I decided this time to invest £10.00 on Ladbrokes Premium Roulette(one of my favourite games). The usual 'up/down' Roller Coaster ride...at one point my money went up to reach £16.++. Only that's when I started to believe I was thoroughly 'invincible'...so didn't wish to 'stop' gambling...; just collect the money and run.  Continuing to gamble, further...I ran into a spot of some seriously bad luck...where I was betting on 'black'...and, 'red' came up 8 times in a row...; each tim...

WAS WINNING.../THEN, LOST EVERYTHING   I continued betting with the £30.00 I'd won from yesterday...; by playing Ladbrokes Premium Roulette. ----- My total went 'up/and, down'... I think, at it's height I was 'up' £50.00+. At it's lowest I was down to: £6.xx. Still continued playing...betting really 'high' when my balance became too low...; and, then, luckily it won. ----- But, at a certain point, I found I could not get back up past the £25.00 mark...; and, eventually, everything went down, down, down...; to when I found myself left with just £2.10p left...; -(I think, there was a run of 6 x black/when I was betting on 'red'...; and, each time doubling up when I lost...; just increased my loosing total)- ...that's when I decided to hell with this...; finally, I quit! ----- GOT TO SET SOME STRICT RULES...IF YOU DON'T WISH TO LOOSE EVERYTHING  One needs to introduce 'stop limits', I'm afraid...if you wish to leave gambling ...

I have to pay for a yearly 60+ FREE London travel pass. -(I should have sent them proof of address/and, £10.00 to renew, yearly; but, unfortunately, I seemed to have missed that email reminder.)-  The cost of renewal is £35.00. As I only had £10.00 inside of my bank a/c.; therefore, I decided to gamble to see if I can make up the rest of the money. I deposited £10.00 into my Ladbrokes a/c.;  choose to play the game: Premium European Roulette. The usual 'up/down' story...; but, at the end of the day, I came away with a winning total of £30.00(or, 300% gain).  

Today, my bank a/c balance said: £50+.  Then I went and did some shopping at Crown Point Lidl Supermarket in West Norwood...the balance when I came back home said just: £27.00 left. But, I was meant to keep, at least, £44.00 balance in there...; in order to pay for my Dulwich Picture Gallery 'friends' yearly membership fee. - https://www.dulwichpicturegallery.org.uk Honestly, I couldn't 'resist' going out and buying myself some food; as food stocks were getting really low . ----- I brought some biscuits:- - sweet biscuits 2 x packets of chocolate biscuits - salt biscuits: Chedder thins ...together with some food:  1 x packet of Sausage Rolls 3 x Mangos 1 x easy peeler tangerines. 1 x packet of porridge 3 x packets of cereals 5 x jam doughnuts 1 x carton of milk 1 packet of 2 small green cabbages ...basically, the stuff I brought cost on average around £1.00 each; so, I wasn't totally freaking out as I brought more and more stuff. However, I was really surprised ...

When I tried signing into my Ladbrokes a/c.;  I saw that there as a £2.xx balance. I decided I wish to withdraw this sum, immediately, right away. Only trouble there is...the minimum amount you can withdraw is £5.00. So, this meant I had to deposit into my Ladbrokes a/c £5.00; in order to be able to withdraw the £2.xx funds won; bearing in mind, that the minimum deposit is £5.00. ---- Only when I went and deposited in the £5.00;  -(thus, leaving me with a £7.xx balance)-; my mind said why not go and do some Roulette gambling, first; before withdrawing any money. So, I went ahead...; and, initially, made small bets...10p/20p; and, if it lost I then 'doubled up'...until when it won; a gambling strategy which paid off for a while. Only, one can not rely too much on the strategy of, always, 'doubling up'...; as, sometimes, your money runs out completely due to repeated 'losing'. In this case, I bet on 'red'...; and, I believe 'black' came up  somethi...

I started gambling Saturday evening, maybe, 7 PM...; and, stopped Sunday morning at around 2:40 AM. I decided to deposit £10.00 into both Ladbrokes/William Hill playing my favorite game, Roulette. The Ladbrokes £10.00 just simply 'vanished'...and, in almost next to no time...?! That is to say, I recall it went up at one point...; but, mostly, went down...until there was nothing left...just a few measley pence...which is when I gave up. The William Hill £10.00 grew and grew...very slowly...0.25p at a time; until, eventually, I became utterly impatient...and, started betting high...instead, of doubling up/I tripled up...which caused me to triple my losses/as well as, triple my gains...; then, I found my total balance was going all over the place...at one point it had said £49.75/and, at another point, £2.25...?! Then, it went back up to become a 'round' £50.00(which I already decided was my goal of the evening). That's when  I decided I've really had quite enough ...

GREW TOO OVER-CONFIDENT ABOUT MY LAST WINNINGS...MAKING ME WANT GO BET EVEN MORE MONEY I'm afraid, that the downside of my my last wins -(when I'd won over 4 times what was my original investment of just £5.00)- was I became totally 'over-confident'...always, an extremely dangerous thing when it comes to doing any gambling; so, through having had that 'one' good experience, it did only serve to encourage me to gamble even far more. Today, I played Roulette; but, instead of my usual 'limited' £5.00 deposit...I allowed myself to get completely carried away in 'blind hope'...and, went and deposited £100.00; but, I ended up coming away with just £30/meaning overall I lost £70.00. (That is so totally 'gut-wrenching' to me...because I could NOT afford to lose so much...?!) At first, I was just gambling...and, the total was running around going all over the place...'up/down' just like a see saw...; that's when I remembered it's v...

Deposited: £10.00/£5.00 into each separate a/c. William Hills/Ladbrokes. ----- Felt the gambling 'itch'...had to scratch it. :: William Hill £5.00 investment...; lost everything almost instantly...?! Played Roulette, in almost next to no time, the William Hill £5.00 bet lost...I had only 0.75p left...making me feel totally 'downhearted'...which is when I decided to quit. (Transferred the 0.75p into my WH Poker a/c., instead.) ----- :: Ladbrokes £5.00 investment....managed to double/triple/quadruple it. Moved over to Ladbrokes Roulette..where, initially, I was able to almost double my money: £19.94...going back right down to £13.54...then, back up to £20.54/-etc. (Nothing is 'certain' about gambling...; so, it's best when ahead...to just take the money and RUN...; before it's all 'too late...?!') I can't believe it, I was just 0.06p off my goal of doubling my money to gain £20.00...when I had to watch all my money go back down...to reach £13.5...

I gambled at both William Hill/Ladbrokes...depositing £5.00 in each separate account; thus, investing a total of £10.00 altogether. I played both Roulette/and, Poker (WH browser based); lost the whole damn lot. ----- NOTE: It was NOT a case of I just simply went and lost, lost, lost...; but, instead, the money went 'up and down' -the usual Roller-Coaster ride-; and, sometimes, I was winning almost £15.00 after having invested just £5.00. It was the usual trouble of just not knowing when to stop/and, also, betting bigger and bigger stakes which when it lost...ended up wiping out my balance, altogether. ----- Anyway, that's me having scratched my gambling itch. Hopefully, I won't get 'tempted' to do any further gambling, at least, for now. NOTE: The strong temptation to gamble does never ever leave me...; I could easily stay there all day/night long doing endless online gambling...and, think I had just died and gone up to sheer blue Heaven; I feel as if I'm in...

I decided to have a go at playing...FREE games...at: - https://sports.williamhill.com - https://www.ladbrokes.com ...much to my surprise, I won especially well at William Hill one arm bandit 'virtual' machines; I won: £9.24. However, when I decided to continue playing when my FREE play was over with; then, I lost...and, my total said, £8.24; that's when I decided to not risk the win...just withdraw everything...before I end up loosing the whole lot...?! ----- Playing at ladbrokes I wasn't even  half so lucky...; there I won just 0.20p. But, then, again, winning something is better than losing, I guess. I just decided to let that money stay in that a/c. until when I can get to build the winnings up some more...enough to be able to withdraw...; as the minimum withdrawal is £5.00.

PLAYING FREE GAMES AT BOTH WILLIAM HILLS/LADBROKES ----- WILLIAM HILL I decided to have a go at playing slots at William Hill. Because, I had played FREE games, and, won some money...; I can't recall exactly what the balance had said...but, it was under £2/3.00. Anyway, after doing the usual Roller-Coaster ride...up/down...I, eventually, ended up winning £20.00. Next, I thought to myself this is really easy...; so, rather than withdraw...why not see if I can make more...such as £25.00+. Well, my balance just went down and down and down...I was playing games at .20p/though, most at .10p spins, at a time. Next thing I knew my balance said just £6.00 left. I decided rather than go and lose it 'all'...might as well withdraw at that point...which is exactly what I did. ----- LADBROKES I also played FREE games at Ladbrokes...I believe I did 'Spin The Wheel'...and, it won something like .20p.    

Recently, I won £4.99 at William Hill in FREE bets. I decided to withdraw everything; and, then, brought some shopping from West Norwood Iceland supermarket store: cookham slices/1 x Jamaican lamb patty/1 x cucumber.

USED UP MY FREE BETS FOR THE DAY...AT LEAST, I WON/DIDN'T LOOSE ANY 'REAL' MONEY...HOWEVER, MY WINNINGS ARE REALLY 'SMALL'...?! Today, Monday, I decided to use up my FREE bets at both William Hill/Ladbrokes... I won: £1.42 at William Hill...and, transferred this balance over to my Poker a/c....which, currently, says: £1.58 balance. I won: £0.10p at Ladbrokes...; which I used to buy 10 x 0.01p bingo tickets. ----- CONCLUSION It's nice the feeling of waking up to get some FREE money to start off the day with. On the other hand, the FREE money is small...; especially, when compared with the thousands and thousands I went and lost over the years to the bookies...?! These small monies will never be able to replace that massive loss. It is also a huge 'temptation' to go and gamble more...; and, thus, end up spending more money on gambling...; when, really, I should be thinking more about saving, instead/or, just NOT gambling at all.

 Of late, I made up my mind to go and check out both... - William Hill - Ladbrokes ...who allow you to play FREE 'spin the wheel' games every single day(as well as, other FREE games). Today, I won £3.00 playing 'spin the wheel'/which gave me 5 FREE jackpot spins...; however, rather than play with that money I'd won...; I decided to withdraw it all, instead; so, I can use it to buy some biscuits.    

Recently, I went and lost my wallet...; a replacement card arrived in through the post. I decided to update my card details at WilliamHill by depositing £10.00 using the 'new' card details. I bet at Roulette...and, initially, I was winning...changing £10.00 deposit...into becoming...£22.xx...more than 'doubled' my money. Most unfortunately, I let myself get too greedy...thinking it's going to be my 'lucky day'...so, I started betting high...doubling up/tripling up whenever my bet went and lost...before I knew it...£22.xx had become £12.xx...and, then, £0.74p. At that point, I found I had lost all further appetite to continue with doing any further gambling. -(Man, I had entertained such high hopes...I owe to Pra Group...a debt of £210.00...and, therefore, was hoping that my previous £22.00 win...could be used to further reduce that debt down to become £190.00; however, it went and lost. So,...?! Now, I can't even pay anything towards that debt. So, be it...

WILLIAM HILL BETTING ----- ROULETTE I received my benefits...; after paying some bills..TalkTalk £44.02...; I was left with around £100.00; but, I wanted to buy a phone...as my current corded phone isn't working very well. So, I needed an extra £20.00, at least. I decided to gamble by investing £50.00 in William Hill. I choose to play Deluxe Roulette...much to my surprise the first bet I did won me £18.00...instantly, right away. I thought to myself...if I stay here gambling any more...; then, I'm likely to lose all of my winnings; so, I decided to withdraw £70.00. Within 1 hour that £70.00 had hit my current a/c. Only, now, I felt tempted to try, again...; playing William Hill roulette...; in fact, many different roulette versions...; only this time I lost everything. Meaning, I 'd won £20.00/but, lost £50.00...so, in all I had lost £30.00. ----- POKER I also decided to play some Poker...I had £12.xx left inside of my William Hill Poker a/c. I recall playing twister: 0.50p...

  Tue 200623 A bit of a strange day... ------------------------------------------------------------- Table of contents:- -> Received fortnightly government benefit money...; and, had to use this to pay urgent bills...; was left with just £10.00. -> Gambled at William Hill...deposited £10...won £30.00. But, had some difficulty withdrawing. -> Returned back to William Hill...to see if I could repeat the successful bet of this morning. Nope, it failed...I lost £10.00! -> Other worries that are, constantly, going through my mind...making me feel 'depressed'. ------------------------------------------------------------- -> Received fortnightly government benefit money...; and, had to use it to pay pay bills...; was left with just £10.00. Today, I received government benefit money...which is approximately £140.00 forthightly. £ 70.00 payment to British Gas £ 50.00 payment to CashPlus loan £ 10.00 payment to the TV Licence ------ £130.00 ...so, after spending £130.00 of...

Tue 160523 ----------------------------- Table of contents- - 09:30 AWOKE: FED CAT/LET HER OUT THE GARDEN ----- Gambling related... - 09:50 LADBROKES/FREE BETS: DIDN'T WIN - 10:00 WILLIAM HILL/FREE BETS: FOUND NOTHING - 10:30 WILLIAM HILL/ROULETTE: LOST £10.00 ----- - 18:00 FED CAT/LET HER BACK OUT INTO THE GARDEN - 19:00 SHOPPED: WEST NORWOOD/ICELAND: - 19:30 SHOPPED: TULSE HILL/MM CHICKEN - 20:00 LOOKS LIKE IT'S GOING TO RAIN/SO, LET CAT BACK IN, AGAIN ----- - CONCLUSION: MADE 2 MISTAKES ----------------------------- - 09:30 AWOKE: FED CAT/LET HER OUT THE GARDEN I had no cat food pouches left...; so, I'm going to have to out and buy some, soon. But, I did have some 'emergency' tins of cat food left. Each tin will last around a day...; so, I give her a 1/3 at a time. After she'd eaten, I let her out into the garden. ----------------------------- - 09:50 LADBROKES/FREE BETS: DIDN'T WIN I did spin the wheel to see if I could win any FREE bets; but, most unfor...